So as you might know, I have a secret YouTube channel, that very few people know.
Recently, I have seen a few controversial marketing being done to make money. There are some people who were faking their income claims just to get customers for their courses.
Since I have been a part of this industry for some time now, I know what’s real and what’s fake.
So there were some ‘gurus’ whom I thought were faking, so I just tried to debunk how they did those things…
When I did this, and my video got a bit of attention, some gurus got really offended. It kicked their butt so hard that now I’m getting threats of damaging my online reputation.
Because of all this mess, I’m feeling like whatever I’m doing is worthless. This online marketing space is very very very mean and cruel. It seems like there is no place for honest and truthful marketing. Everyone just wants to sell a dream by using manipulative tactics.
I really feel like quitting. I had longed for so long to be a YouTuber, but now when I’ve seen the reality, it feels like this is not what I wanted.
I’m thinking of selling or just simply quitting this project. I have learnt a lot from this. I’m planning to maybe implement whatever I’ve learnt in a startup or something.
Like maybe I could start my own startup. Maybe I could work in a company on basis of results of this project (like digital deepak did). Maybe I could work in my café and help it scale. Maybe I could start my advertising agency (I’m really curious about stopmotion video ads for e-commerce). Or maybe I could become a travel vlogger (because I love traveling and trekking). Or maybe I could start an online business or a YouTube channel in some other niche. Or maybe i could work for some influencer whom I admire, like digital Deepak or digital Pratik or etc. Or maybe I could become a monk and go on a search for meaning of life and all the questions I have about this universe.
I don’t know.
But at this time I’m feeling really really really low.
This marketing field is full of negative people. They just wanna make money, they don’t wanna invest in learning skills. And they feel jealous of other people’s success. They’re living with a crab mentality.
I don’t know what I will do after this. I just cancelled my MailerLite annual plan, because I might not continue this project. Let’s see.
It’s 4:46 a.m and I’m lying on my bed wondering what I’m gonna do next.